It's 2:30 a.m. on Sunday morning and the night seems so long. Saturday was one of those days that lasted forever. Some days you want to go on forever and other days you are ready to see the end of and night to get here for rest. Seems like Saturday was a forever day. It was a beautiful day, friends and family came to call, D had a fairly good day. Lots of good laughs, new memories to hold on to tightly for those whenever days, but the day just seems out of sorts for some reason. You know how some times you just feel that something isn't right but you can't figure out what it is. You just feel like you are in the wrong place at the wrong time. A very surreal kinda feeling.
But then when things seem really whacko and I don't feel like I fit in my own skin anymore, GOD rains down some more of those awesome blessings and all is right with the world again. Saturday GOD allowed D to give me the most awesome blessing. D
doesn't get out of bed anymore, he doesn't walk or stand and his right side is basically paralyzed. But on Saturday afternoon, he wiggled and giggled his way to the end of the bed and managed with a little help from his girlfriend aka me and Jill to sit up. Then he proceeded to hold me, really hold me, the he stood for just a brief moment, held me and kissed my face. In those few seconds I felt as if I had made love in the most intense loving perfect way that my husband had ever loved or will ever love me again. It was so beautiful, sweet and pure - the look in his eyes spoke of a love that passes all understanding, time, life and death.
Tonight, I held D - we crawled into bed and he crawled into my lap where I cradled his head and held him, stroking his fevered brow and praying away the pain in his head. Tonight we again shared a love so pure and intense that nothing can separate us even death.
GOD is so good to grant us these blessings - now once again I am thankful for 24 hours in a day.
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