Pre-Birthday Reflections

Tomorrow will be D's 63rd Birthday - Wow how time flies so we all say. It does and truly changes in a heartbeat. You never know what you have until it's gone. Wish I had another day to do that again. We should have taken that trip. It's a shame we didn't do that, why didn't we do this.

As I am sitting here reflecting on our life together, I do so without regrets. We lived well, laughed louder, loved stronger, and just flat out enjoyed all the blessings that GOD gave us. Would I want more you ain't kidding. Will I be sad and brokenhearted when D's earthly life is over. More than my words will be able to say, but I do not plan to fill my life with emptiness. I plan to live as D and I lived. Honoring our GOD, D, our children, grandchildren and friends.

Through this journey I have discovered many things about myself and D that were just under the surface waiting for GOD to uncover for me. GOD has worked liked an archaeologist on an ancient historical dig. D and I truly are bound together with chains that were welded together with an unbreakable material. One heart pumps the blood that feeds the other one. One set of lungs pushes the breath into the others. One mind feeds the thought patterns into the other so we know where the pain is, where the system shut downs are and when to say "people I need quiet now" He also showed us the Atlas that leads one to the pathway to Heaven and one the earthly walks for an unfinished journey.

Today while I was in a reflecting mode, I thought about some of the blessings of the people who have come into our lives in the past 3 weeks since we entered Hospice. Do you know that we have not once had to worry or think about food? People from all walks of our life have dropped everything in their lives to cook meals for us. They just show up at the door with food. Home cooked, comfort food, that's what I'm talking about, chocolate cakes, cokes, chicken and noodles, gumbo. the list goes on and on. D can't eat, but they know that cooking is the last thing on my mind and our family still has to eat.

I haven't left the house in 3 weeks, can you imagine the state of our refrigerator if someone hadn't of done that. The lovely young girl who cuts my hair came to the house yesterday and cut, colored and fixed my hair. I cried, what did I do to deserve to be treated so kindly? Nothing - but GOD in HIS infinite wisdom knew I needed that.

There are people who are called preacher's who stand in pulpits every Sunday and do just that the preach the word of GOD, and then there is the Minister. What is the difference? At our house you will find the difference. Daniel is the difference, he is here most everyday just sitting, talking, laughing, praying, and being. Ministering to a family - being a FRIEND of GOD ! If you don't have a church family and a true FRIEND OF GOD to help your family during journey's like these you will be lost my friends.

Each persons journey is unique to their situation and how it effects those around them. We receive blessings and prayers as far away as Afghanistan from young men who are busy trying to keep their fellow soldiers safe and their own lives intact. We have no contact from blood relatives or friends that are just a whisper away. Why, that is not what D's journey is about and this is not a reflection on them.

D's journey is about BLESSINGS ! The blessing that comes from knowing that when he was born 63 years ago tomorrow, he came into this world to be gifted to me by my Abba Father to love me, honor me, cherish me for all the days of his life. He did just as GOD designed him to do and I will carry that love with me all the days of my life.

This is the blessing of D.