28 Years ago on Good Friday, D proposed to me. It was the beginning of the rest of our lives or so we thought. We truly believed that we would grow old together, we would someday sit back and watch our children's children grow up. Life isn't what you dream of, plan on or wait for. Life isn't about fairy tales, romance novels, sitting on the sidelines or just getting by. Life is about jumping in, driving fast, tasting new foods, wearing bold colors, dancing in the rain naked, singing off key, laughing too loud. Life is about living, taking chances. Life is about no regrets. D is my no regret.
He is educated, talented, different. He was basically a blind date, a good guy with a professional job, established, a man of means a man's man, and a woman's dream. From the very first date, I was smitten. I knew without a shadow of a doubt he was gonna be mine, he says that he knew I was the one then too, but he fought it. Pain causes you to shut your heart off, but GOD has a plan bigger than man and when HE sets a course for you, it is destined to unfold. We were married October 18, 1986 in our home in a small intimate ceremony. Just the way D liked things. Small, simple no big fuss, no regrets.
Our family's became one, our children became twins by marriage. Joyfully, lovingly excited about life in a new home and family. They grow up together, building snowmen, riding bikes, making friends, learning life's lessons. No regrets. They are all for each other through good and bad times. Big Brother Little Sister, Always and Forever.
Last night D and I said "Good Bye" - why?. As the GLIO robs more and more of who he is, you take each moment and realize that at some point you grab the good and rational moments and hold them for what they are worth - everything. We have said GOODBYE before, but this time it truly seems like we are really saying those things that you need to say so there will be NO REGRETS. D can still hear everything going on around and talks with his eyes, but he doesn't verbalize much at all. He sleeps most all the time. The signs are there pointing to the end that he will soon be going to Jesus. He will be going home. He will get to see his beloved Mother Nina Maeand his precious son Bo.
He is ready when GOD comes calling. Jill and I will remain to carry on, to take care of each other and love on another as we were loved by D and Bo. To remain always a family living with NO REGRETS !

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You amaze me everytime I talk to you or read something you wrote!! I am bawling my eyes out, I feel part of your pain! I pray strength, peace, and love for you, for each day! God will see you through, and time will heal (some). I love to hear you laugh, to make the most out of each day. I know D and Bo would want that for you, and it does my heart good! You lift up my spirit! You have truly become one of my best friends, and I love you with all my heart! Lynne
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