I LOVE YOU !Oh, I love to tell D those three little words and he loves to say them to me. We are those people that are disgustingly happy in love. Public displays of affection come easy the longer we have been together. We are still in the Honeymoon phase of a 28 year relationship. We have had our ups and downs, highs and lows and suffered things that many people aren't even aware of. But, GOD has always been the strength that we rely on. HE and HE alone carried us in times when other relationships would have crumbled.
It has not been easy - we had to blend a family, and blend one we did. So well in fact that most people don't even know the biological aspects of our family and that is how it should be.
Back to those three little words, they aren't always easy to say. Some people say them without hesitation and without really thinking about what comes with the commitment of I love you and some people refuse to say them because of some excuse that they will be less, weak in some ones eyes or maybe they weren't raised that way.
Sometimes I think people say them so much you lose the real meaning of what I love you is - let me tell you that when I say I love you to D and he says it back to me it means that he knows that I am here 24 / 7, that when he says he doesn't want to see anyone but me, I will stand guard at the door and take anyone out that trys to come in. It means that I will make sure that his pain stays under control, I will get him in and out of bed 50 times a day if that is what makes him happy. I will guard his dignity up to the end so that he knows he can maintain the person he has always been. When he says he loves me I know that with his dying breath everything we have been through has been worth it. He is saying that I mean more to him than anyone or anything in the world and he will love me to Heaven and back. When he says I love you I feel it to the breath of my being. He stills looks at me as if he is seeing me for the very first time. It isn't hard for us to say I love you.
D was loved as a child, but wasn't raised in a home where the words were spoken, they were shown. When he had children he decided to do things differently. He made sure that Jill and Bo heard the words that he lived by. You could ask them and they would tell you their Daddy loved them and told them.
I was raised in a home where the words were spoken a lot and it was easy for me to transfer that ability to speak those 3 little words to my children. If you ask them I hope they would say that not only did I speak it, but I showed them love as well.
If there is someone in your life that you truly love not just care about, want something from or need to get away with something. Take a moment and tell them you love them. Those three little words could change a life forever.
On the other side of the coin the next time you get ready to casually toss out those beautiful words "I love you" think about the meaning, commitment and dedication that is carried with them for the rest of your life.
Just as when Bo died there will be no one to call me "Mom" when D gets to Heaven there will be no love of my life to say "I love you" before I go to sleep at night.
Life will be different but GOD remains the same. He made sure to give me a soulmate that knew the true meaning of those three beautiful words so I could cherish them forever.
Saying I LOVE YOU is the most beautiful gift in the world when you truly mean it forever !
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