Difficult Days Ahead

Fall, beautiful fall, it brings to mind so many wonderful memories, sights and smells.  It is a favorite time of year for many and the beginning of a very difficult time for many of us.

Fall marks the time of the year when things begin to change enough to be noticed at the blink of an eye.  Colors that were once brilliant and gorgeous become dull and lifeless. Beautiful leaves fall to the ground to be trampled and forgotten, just as our tears fall down our faces  never to be forgotten.

Fall is that time of year when the cold, dampness of the day seeps into the very center of your bones like the way the ebb and flow of the darkness of depression of grief seeps into your mind.  You can't will it away, you can't pray it away, you can't cry it away and you can't soak it away in a hot tub.

The fall back hours of daylight savings time send a message to our hearts and our minds to fallback into the memories of our past.  The holidays are coming, the ones of the past we shared together, the ones we never had and the ones we will have to find a way to fake it through.  

Yes, we work hard to build new memories, new traditions and step forward into our new normals, but the people who are no longer physically present in our lives have such a profound impact on us that falling back may be all we are able to do this year.

At night you long to crawl into the arms of that person you loved and tell them how much you miss your child, to share your pain and heartbreak because that is the only other person in the world who understands, only that person is not there either.  You want to tell them how much you living child hurts for the loss of their brother and how difficult this season is turning out to be.  But you realize they are also physically absent from you.  

There are no arms to hold you, no voice to comfort you, no hands to wipe your tears, or that's what you think and then in the midst of the darkness of your grief......HE reaches out for HIS child, HE offers HOPE, LOVE, compassion, grace and joy.  HE doesn't promise no difficult days in the coming season but HE does promise to be with us.

GOD will comfort you, wipe your tears and be your greatest support in the days and weeks ahead - All you have to do is ask !