Twenty-nine years ago I said "I do" to this wonderful man. what a blessing he has always been to me. Many years of happiness, trials, tragedies and surprises. I so miss him. He was every woman's dream and sometimes a nightmare. He gave me anything my heart desired with in reason and spoiled me severely because he loved to do it.
He would surprise me with diamonds, trips, dinner or just a quiet weekend at the woods. I would surprise him with foods I cooked, trips and being quiet when he needed it. We were a team. A team that moved mountains and slayed dragons. We were lovers, best friends, confidants, supporters for one another and grief partners.
Best of all he was a man of God, the spiritual leader of our family. He taught me so much about helping others, praying and reading my bible. He was the example. Bo and Jill learned from seeing him reading his Bible daily, sharing his faith with others and spending time with the Lord.
D was not without faults. His temper would get the best of him sometimes and he truly disliked a dirty house. He was not mechanical, technical or computer savvy but then again he didn't have to be. Where he failed he knew others would shine so he went to them for those things that he couldn't do.
Today should have been one of those days where we woke up late, snuggled, made love and begin another year together as a team. It wasn't, it was a day of quiet reflection of the past. Today is the day that I praise God for gifting this wonderful man to me, to be my compass in the storms and my shelter from the wind.
Today is that day when I look back and see that when D died I lost so much more than just him. My family that once was is no more. The father-in-law, nieces, nephews, in-laws, all the family occasions that no longer happen. I no longer fit into the family that I once was a part of for over 30 years. I miss D and all that came with him.
However, today is a day to be grateful for what I had and what I have. It is a day to thank D for making the woman I am today because without him, I would not be the woman that Danny loves and married. I am the woman who was and is loved by two great men. Loving one does not negate the love for the other. They are two separate, beautiful, different loves, just as they are two totally different men.
For that Abba knew what HE was doing. My life is blessed and with a grateful heart I praise Him and thank Him for the love that D gave to me and the beautiful memories of our marriage.
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