How Do I Deal With Today ?

Dear God,
Where do I go from here? It's Sunday my favorite day of the week ! Family day or so we always called it. I always looked forward to Sunday when we get up anxious to go to church, meet together and worship together as a family. Some Sundays it is just Dad and I, some Sundays, it is just us and Bo and Lori, and sometimes it is Dad and I, Jill & Jeremy with the boys. Most of the time it is all of us Dad, me, Bo, Lori, Jill, Jeremy, the boys and the girls when they were at home.

But this Sunday is the second week that that will never happen again. Bo and Lori always sat to the right of us in our "family" pew, Aunt JoDee and Uncle Bob behind them and Jill's family in front....Last Sunday we were still so numb an in shock that it was a fog of even being there but this day I am afraid and lonely and sad of being in one of my favorite places.


The church is just a building and people within it make up the body of Christ..when I go to church today, I will cry and remember some of the wonderful times shared with Bo at this special place and my heart will be filled with joy inplace of sadness. The times he held my hand during the opening prayer, the times he and Lori wrote love notes back and forth to each other during church service, the way he picked on Ian and Carter Dean, pulling their ears, tickleing their ribs and enjoying their laughter. I will remember hearing him preach, praising GOD as he lead the communion mediatation, his baptism and serving communion with me, his Dad and Grandfather as a family for the first time.

He knew that a man did not get to Heaven by his good works, but that GOD expected him to live his life according to the good book and although he was human he tried in many ways to do that. His laughter fills the air at our church and in the sounds of the people around me..the hardest part of today or any Sunday will be how do I deal with someone sitting in Bo's place in our family pew??????

Dear God,
Thank you for this beautiful day, thank you for the wonderful love and mercy you rain down on me and my family. I love you with all my heart, you are the giver of my life, teach me, mold me and make me the person you most want me to be today. Use me today to be the person you want me to be, let others see your light shine in me so that they to may see the glory of GOD and desire a closer relationship with you. Guard my home, family and friends from the evils of Satan, protect and defend us from those that would cause us harm. Thank you Lord Jesus for the everything you have done in my life..Amen