will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To HIM be the power for ever and ever. Amen.
Last night was our family visitation for D at the funeral home. It was April all over again. Another closed casket, another long line of people coming one after the other to hold us, hug us love on us and tell us just how amazing that beautiful man of mine was. I know he wasn't just mine, a share him with a grieving Father, daughter, sister,grandsons, nieces, nephews and a host of friends who loved him like as if he were theirs. What a life this man had in such a short time, but the thing is D lived. He didn't sit on the sidelines and let life pass by.
There are no words to convey the wonder of all the people or the smells - ok I just have to go there. D would say really do you want to do that but yeah ! Ok it's kinda like Visitation 101 - bath, if you can't bath, use deodorant, brush your teeth, don't eat onions before hand, (I didn't), DON'T SMOKE, if you do, please please don't hug to long, if you must drink a lot of alcohol before you come, don't breathe on me or at least bring me a complimentary cocktail. The moth balls, I didn't even know they were still around, but I swear I smelt moth balls last night. Hamburgers, french fries and onion rings, cheap cologne, hairspray, and last but not least babies. I love babies !
It's funny, I WAS NOT OFFENDED by any of the smells because they all brought back memories of the people they carried into my arms and memories our times together with D. I loved all those people and all the smells because oh because we all smell, we all carry something of who we are every where we go. Some of it people will love and others won't - who cares it's just who we are and it's what makes the memories rush forward and bring tears to your eyes.
All the smells of all our friends mixed in with the beauty of the love, laughter, hugs and tears made last night a night of wonder. A night of GOD's blessing - it was a rain shower of smell - it was as GOD planned it - we are all different but the same because we are all HIS and all loved by HIM as we love others we pour that spirit out on others. Just as a liquid covers some areas of a cloth, a smell touches some people in one way and others in a different way. That's what GOD does with the smell of those HE loves - it is the fragrance of HIS being in your life.
HIS fragrance was everywhere last night in every pour of every person in that room, it over powered any thing that might have been foul and made it beautiful in HIS sight. GOD does that. HE chose to clothe everyone who walked into that place last night with this wonderful fragrant scent of HIS love that covered all of us so that the only smell that matter that came through in the end was the magnificent glorifying scent of LOVE !
The last scent of my night was the scent of strength. I didn't realize it had a smell, but oh it does and it was so evident, so strong and SO BEAUTIFUL GOD FILLED SO FRAGRANT ! I pray to embrace and smell this so many many more days ahead. I walk out of the final viewing of D' casket and my beautiful 8 year old grandson grabs me and holds me. Not to be comforted by me, but he truly, truly is comforting me. I smell his hair, I smell his skin, I smell his strength, I smell GOD !
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