Laid to Rest - March 23, 2011

LAID TO REST

What a weird play on words. D wasn't laid to rest yesterday, oh I know we took his lifeless body, put it in a nice wooden box and as he requested "a big square box, and put it deep" but really laid to rest, don't think so. How can you lay to rest a man you spend 28 years of your life loving. Don't really think putting him in a box six feet deep is going do it !

In fact after the beautiful GOD filled day yesterday it is going to be a lot harder for me to lay to rest. The HOLY SPIRIT was everywhere, Abbey and James gave a blessing in their music, Dr. Haws prayer lifted the sadness from the church and filled your hearts with the joy of knowing where D was, Dr. Cooper said it best when he said "if you have a friend like D that dies in Jesus you have a friend for eternity", Daniel told stories that invited those who didn't really know D to actually know him better. Jennifer made sure every thing was done in a manner that was pleasing for the family. Our beautiful church family ! What a blessing of food they managed, we could have fed the entire Springdale Police Department and CVMA-AR 72 that helped at the service. AMAZING GOD filled service.

LeeAnn read her beautiful poem and Angela sang in her angels voice at the cemetery. D was finally laid to rest, my Poppa and my Bob stayed to make sure it was all complete tied up neat with a pretty yellow bow.

Laid to rest, not yet, Dean and Shannon had to drive me around place to place, back to the cemetery, here and there. People everywhere.

How do you truly lay someone to rest? It's 3:30 in the morning and I laid down to rest at 11:30 p.m. - visions of D are everywhere in my mind. Not just of the sick days, but of the lifetime of laying down together, sick, well, happy, sad all of them. Even of him laying in that blasted coffin. How do you lay someone to rest? It's gonna take a lot more than a beautiful ceremony, lots of friends and support, it's going to take the HAND of GOD and the ARMS of my JESUS holding me tight as I sleep or I may never lay to rest well for a long time.

So I shall set this blog aside till tomorrow, go back to the couch, pray and when I close my eyes, I will see D and Bo together in Heaven, I will pray for my little family around the corner that they will be resting well, I will thank GOD for all of you who helped me and my family love our D in such a special way today and when I close my eyes I will see my HEAVENLY FATHER wrap HIS arms around me and I will lay me down to sleep peacefully for a few hours. Amen.