Today I Said Yes !

Today was that day that I finally said "yes". It was hard, but I listened to the wise and wonderful words of my dear friend Angela. She told me on Sunday that one of the best things I can do for myself is to say "yes". When someone ask you to do something, your first answer is going to be "no". You are going to want to come home, shut the world out and shut down. DON'T, find a way to say "yes". Today I did.

Today two of my dear friends invited me to dinner after work and I said "yes". I must say I was proud of myself and I heard Angela in the back of my mind going "you go girl". In my heart all I wanted to do was go home, take a bubble bath and curl up on the couch with Tac and Ollie and long for D. But in my mind I know this is one of those smart steps.

Remembering back to the first time D and I went out to eat after Bo was killed, panic almost sets in. Will people be looking at me, will they know, will they sense my grief and the emptyness in side of me. Is the label on my heart so evident they can see it? What will I do if my box burst open while I am out to dinner?

So, I pray and pray all afternoon I lift this beautiful invitation up to GOD, thanking HIM for these wonderful friends and this kindness. Thanking HIM that tonight I won't have to eat alone, praising HIM that tonight someone else will prepare my meal, glorifying HIS holy name that there are friends that realize the importance and difficulty of my first meal away from home, lifting up these beautiful people.

Praising my GOD and thanking HIM for the love of D and the blessing of 28 years of him in my life. Asking GOD to get me through one more day and thanking HIM that saying "Yes" was the right thing for me today.