Courageous

Yesterday one of my dear dear friends and I went to see the wonderful movie "Courageous". We both laughed, cried and held our breath during many moments of the movie. There were times that were so intense that I actually felt that these people had been living in our home and videotaping D and I on April 3rd and the months that followed. There were moments the pain was so real, the words spoken were my words or D's that I relived those precious moments, months and weeks. The pain in my chest came back just as it had so many months ago. Courage, faith, love, friendship, strength-where does it come from? GOD and only GOD.

Michael experienced his own personal story in the movie. Something that is his to tell not mine but it touched him in much the same way. It was as if there was a reason that we were chosen by GOD to sit together, cry together, laugh together, heal together and find peace together. I didn't chose this movie for us to see, GOD did.

Courage - my courage has waived lately, I have avoided my journal, avoided my feelings because I haven't wanted to feel. I have been stuffing them down inside like stuffing an oversized king pillow in a standard pillow case. Try as hard as you can, even if you get it in there, it will eventually pop out somewhere.

When laying in bed at night, talking to GOD, He encourages me to write my feelings, to share HIS messages and yet, I avoid HIS directions. You can only tell GOD no for so long and HE will find a way to get you to obey. COURAGEOUS was that message. Be brave, quit hiding, express myself, share and heal, get out of under the blanket and off the couch. "I'm trying LORD, I'm trying."

We as believer's, Christ followers are called to live differently, it's not easy, we fail, we falter, but we can be forgiven if we ask. We have been given a rare opportunity in today's society a beautiful movie, GOD inspired, family based, Christian morals and faith founded - instead of spending your hard earned money on a no-brainer movie that funds over paid actors and the deep pockets of Hollywood whose morals you don't agree with, go see a movie that will allow a group to further support GOD's movement and feel your soul.

GOD is winning the war - one courageous soul at a time - there was a line in the movie that went something like this - "I would rather stand alone as a believer than join and do the wrong thing."