Sunday Afternoon Naps

Sunday Afternoon Naps - yes, I am old enough for them, I have come to appreciate them.  I no longer feel quilty for taking them and I actually enjoy them.  Sometimes though emotions take over and pain creeps in.  Sunday afternoon naps become a time of memories, forgiving oneself and embracing the no regrets policy all over again.  It is a reminder of the new normal I live, the past I can't relive and the blessings that have taken me here.

D loved to take Sunday afternoon naps.  I an see him now laying on the bed, hand on his head watching TV, fan on then next thing - silence, a gentle snore and peaceful sleep.  Sometimes he would ask me to take a nap with him, many time I would and then we would tease each other the next day about how bad we slept that night, but how wonderful our nap had been.  Many times I would think I was to busy or have some stupid show on TV that I would want to watch. Other times while he was napping I would wrestle up a batch of some really good baked goods and he would wake to the smells coming from the kitchen.

I loved the smile on his sleepy face and the happiness in his eyes when he would come in the kitchen, hug me from behind, kiss me and say "that smells good !"  He was really talking about me - but he pretended it was what I was baking.  He loved my cooking and tasted everything.  My joy for cooking is gone.  My taster is in Heaven eating perfect Manna from GOD, everything smells perfect.

Sunday afternoons, I often lay down for a nap, today dreams evade my once peaceful thoughts, tears flow from my eyes as the memories of the love, laughter and fun we had on those Sunday afternoons rush into my heart and soul.  Regrets try to fill the place where peace should be but I refuse.  For every regret that trys to enter, I have a praise, a prayer and a blessing. 

D and I lived our life full of NO REGRETS !!! Our Sunday afternoon naps were special !!! Thank you GOD for blessing me with the memories to rest and be comforted during my Sunday nap today !!!