Only GOD Loved Him First

GOD knew him long before I was ever thought of, long before HE chose to gift him to me, but what a gift he was and still is.  I dreamed of a child one day, of the joy of pregnancy, the flutter, the beat of his heart, the kicking and moving inside of me.  The was no disappointment when the dream became reality.  It was like it happened yesterday.  I remember so much, no sickness only gladness, the news, the joy, the anticipation, the 8 months of him growing inside me.  Always knew it was a boy, just felt it.  The difficult, long and trying birth, almost losing him during and after delivery and the miracle continues.

Today, I reflect on the man this wonderful person that  my gift became.  He touched so many lives and loved so many.  He had that capacity to love, forgive and embrace life.   He gave all he had to the point of doing without himself, but could be selfish at times, he loved deeply and hurt just as deeply.  If you wounded him, he carried those wounds deep.  He could forgive with time, prayer and reflection, but for some it took years.  Once forgiven it was over.  He loved his nephews to Heaven and back, he loved all kids, teasing, picking and joking with them just like D had done all his life.  He loved OZZIE and animals in general.

Bo loved being in the woods, riding 4-wheelers, hunting, music-all kinds, eating, riding motorcycles.  He loved LIFE.  Lori was the love of his life and he loved her girls.  He loved family ! He loved his country for all it's faults and he loved the Army and his comrades - he would do anything for his vets and buds.

He was happiest doing something and then just dropping exhausted into bed at the end of the day filling fulfilled.  He suffered from PTSD and night terrors from the war in Iraq.  He had multiple health problems that he hid from everyone except his Mom and later Lori.

Bo walked a walk of faith counting on GOD's hand to lead his steps.  The walk was shaking at different points in his life but became deeper, steadier and straighter the last 5 to 6 years of his life.  He was always a child of GOD and grew stronger and more passionate with each passing moment.  GOD's light shone brightly within him.  Bo was a leader not a follower.  He marched to GOD's beat and no one elses.

He was not without faults, could be a whiner and was considered quite the Momma's boy, but all in all D and I raised two beautiful, wonderful and stable children in Bo and Jill.

Today, I miss him from his first heartbeat to his last, from his first breath to his last.  He will always be my baby boy.  GOD chose me to carry him inside of me, to give him life, to nurture him, train him, teach him and guide him.  GOD gave him to me for a short time, but that was all HE felt I needed before HE took Bo home.

Today, I pray for all those who's lives were changed on April 3, 2010 by a terrible accident that changed so many lives.  I know that my life will forever be different.  I love you to Heaven and Back Bo - Always your Momma !