sticks her ugly head in the great big middle of our day. Today is the LORD's day, we have always loved going to church together. It is who we are. Since Bo and Lori were such a part of that, sitting in church every Sunday is hard. Most Sundays, we cry for the loss, we mourn, we celebrate the family we have, we praise GOD for the blessings of Jill, Jeremy, Ian and Carter Dean praising and worshipping there also, but sometimes, it's so painful being there and knowing that just in a flash all of us lost so much. But we are there to gain so much. D crys most Sunday's wanting to embrace the joy of being there, but the missing and pain so great sometimes it's hard to separate and almost makes going unbearable. How can something so joyful be so painful. I don't know, but GOD does. We go and watch the spiritual growth of our other children because that is the blessing we receive through the pain of our loss. Difficult as it is it is who we must be to see the answer to our prayers.
Well, today GLIO robbed us again - it wasn't anything but for her pleasure that she kept us from church. D is doing very poorly. His speech is slurred, he is having diffculty walking, his mind is confused. GLIO charges forth and wins todays battle but not the war. Jill, Jeremy and Carter Dean rally, go to church to worship,praise GOD and that is what it's all about. Their spiritual growth continues and GOD wins the battle. D, Ian and I listen to church on TV, share, pray and worship at home. GOD will always win the war, HE is in control when all else fails and GLIO sits in the corner snickering at the destruction she has caused on the physicial aspects of our lives. We have the ACE in the HOLE so to speak
No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what GOD has prepard for those who love him.
Now we sit and wait to see if a trip to the hospital is in store and what GLIO's next punch will be - no matter - even at her best - GOD is better, stronger and always in charge.
2 comments:
Hi Sister.. I'm following ya'lls journey with GLIO and praying for you guys. You aren't alone and the same awesome God that parted the Red Sea and turned water into wine is the same one sitting in your house with you. Laughing when you laugh, crying when you cry and giving you guys the all the grace, mercy, peace and strength you need for today. Grab onto the hem of His garment and hang on. If Dave gets too weak to hang on to it himself, then you hang on for him. You are a mighty woman of God and His glory is shining brightly through your words and your pain. In you.. we can see Jesus in both the pain and the glory. Somehow it does all go together and one day we'll understand all the whys. Until that day comes, know this is a season that He is carrying you, the only footprints in the sand are His right now. You all are in good hands, His hands.
If we can do anything, let us know. Still praying and will keep it up. God bless! Diane (Wingman's wife)
Jannie,
I think this journal is a wonderful idea. I must admit that I have wanted to reach out and ask how things were going so many times but have been afraid to or that there would be an uncomfortable silence. This way I know exactly what is going on with you and David. I also wanted to thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being so kind to me and my family. You were there for me in my time of need. I love you all so much and you all will continue to be in my prayers and in my heart.
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