I BELIEVE !

This picture of D makes me think that he is pondering about life, death and GOD's timing. We always felt GOD's timing to be perfect about everything in our lives. We tried not to question GOD about what happens in our life, we just accept it and go on. When you learn to give GOD total control of your life you have to do that, otherwise you would be questioning HIM all the time and then it wouldn't be true submission. D and I had many deep discussions about GOD's timing and HIS purpose for us.

Yesterday and today I spent many hours reflecting on GOD's purpose for D and me. Yesterday after going to the cabin I drove on to Ozark, taking the scenic route aka "the Pig Trail" over to my parent's home. At the top of the mountain I came upon a motorcycle wreck. Flashes, anxiety, tears and overwhelming urge to drive past and not look tore through my body, but GOD spoke to me, calming my fears and said "stop, my child all is well." As I pulled over to the side of the road, I am lifting up prayers for all the people gathered at the side of the road.

Walking to the accident scene visions of Bo, Lori, Paul, Keith, Taylor, Casper and Mr. B flash through my mind then I think of the State Trooper who was called to the scene. My focus is not on the accident in front of me, but rather on another accident on another day, April 3, 2011. A day very much like today, beautiful weather, thousands of motorcyclists on the road and GOD's presence everywhere.

A man and women are laying in the ditch, they have been attended to by others, I look at the man and think to myself, he looks so familiar to me but I can't place him. My heart is racing, my breathing labor and I think to myself, "there is no way you know this person, he's looking right at you like he knows you but he can't can he?" Maybe it's just because of the circumstances and I am wishing that in my heart of hearts Bo and Lori's wreck had turned out like this and that that was Bo's face I was looking at. I don't know, but it is time to leave. GOD gives me the strength to walk back across the road. All the way to Ozark I pray for this couple, the ambulance driver and the State Trooper. Coming home from Ozark I stop to leave flowers at the place where Bo and Lori were killed again praising GOD that the couple weren't killed earlier today.

Today at church I asked my church family to pray for this unknown couple. I can't seem to get them out of my mind, after church I am off the to cemetery to put flowers on D's grave. Someone calls to inform that the couple we prayed for was actually my cousin and his new wife. That's right - my cousin and I didn't even recognize him - how pathetic am I - don't believe I am.

In truth I believe that GOD put scales on my eyes so that I wouldn't see who that was laying in the ditch. I believe that GOD's timing is perfect and that I wasn't suppose to be the one that had to call my Aunt and tell her that her only son had been in a motorcycle wreck. I believe that I trust in GOD's judgment and HIS guidance in my life. I believe that when I went and saw my cousin in ICU today and he told me he was sorry that I was the one that saw him in the ditch and he was sorry he didn't recognize me that was GOD's will protecting me.

You see I BELIEVE !