It was a journey of discovery, D and I had many conversations regarding the cabin and what to do with it when he became sick. It is still to early to decide, but I was never sure if I ever wanted to go back there. You see it was his special place. He loved that cabin more than any other place in the world. It was his sanctuary, his get away place. He would go alot of times on the weekends and I would stay home and work at the shop so that he could go.
We also loved going together, we would take four-wheelers sometimes, but many times we just went and drove around in the woods in the jeep. It's a great place to go and just be. Sometimes we never left the cabin, we just spent the weekend reading, resting and being together. The memories are so precious and so many that it is impossible to count. Memories with our kids, our grandkids, our friends, but mainly just us. OUR CABIN - our little love nest !
It was as if D and GOD were walking right beside me every step I took today. Thinking I would be sad and lonely today I had great apprehension about going, but all the way to the cabin and once I got there, I was never alone. D was just a breath away, I felt his presence all day, I was the happiest I have been in 3 weeks, the sunshine, the fresh air, the breeze, the water in the creeks, the sounds and smells at our cabin made me happy and fullfilled.
GOD was smiling on me, I felt so loved and safe. Sitting on the deck after all my chores were done I almost felt as if I closed my eyes I could reach out and touch D. Instead, I closed my eyes and thanked my FATHER for granting me the peace HE gave me for this day. It was an AWESOME blessing and one I shall not forget anytime soon.
My next trip to the cabin is one that I will look forward to with great anticipation rather than anxiety knowing that my GOD will again remove my fears allowing me the joy of a beautiful journey.
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