That was one of my secret names for D. He loved it when I called him that, he really did. It was my pet name for him. What a big sweet baboo he was. Looking at this picture reminds me of how much I love D and how happy we are. He is the sweetest, happiest, funniest man I have ever met. The way he loves me is amazing. I can not speak of him in past tense because he still loves, I still feel his presence everyday, we are still married. Our heartbeats still beat in rhythm, when I lay down at night, I believe that from Heaven he and our FATHER in HEAVEN are watching over me as I sleep. It just helps me to rest and sleep peacefully.
The expression in his eyes says I am a man who is completely at peace with who I am, where I am going and what I am doing in my life. He knew that he was loved completely by me, that we had a blessed marriage a family that loved and honored him, friends who cherished him and a life that GOD watched over.
Today was one of those days that it seemed like all I wanted to do was be home and all I had to do was be gone. I ran from here to there to everywhere and back again. Finally I arrived home only to discover that the quick and easy fix for the hot water heater wasn't going to work and it will be Monday before I can get it taken care of. Will probably have to have a new hot water heater now. Not something I had planned on, but who does. Thank you GOD that my amazing beautiful grandsons live around the corner and will allow me to come over and borrow their shower so I can clean up. I do not fashion a cold shower with this cold weather we are having.
Tac and Ollie want to lay right on top of me tonight. I think they need to be as close to me as I need them. The four weeks since D has had his HEAVEN date have caused so many changes in all of us. I find that I have learned that being by myself isn't so bad. I am not bad company. I would rather have D, but I can and do not mind being my own company. Taking care of 2 companies is a lot of stress, financial strain and burden that I didn't realize the full extent of. There is lot of work but I can do a lot of things I didn't think I could.
GOD has given me so much when HE challenged me to live without Bo and D during my earthly walk.
HE didn't take away, HE gave back, multiplied my blessings, increased love count, HE filled me up with friends and family. HE never once took HIS eyes off of me so I will do the same for HIM - I will keep my eyes firmly on HIS face so that my walk will continue to glorify HIM.
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