The greatest things missing were the absence of the larger than life characters of David, Lori and Bo. Bo and David loved a great gathering, Lori tagged along with anything that Bo wanted.
My"nuclear" family unit that is consistantly active in my life is Jill, Jeremy, Ian, Carter Dean and JoDee. With GOD's grace and mercy thru Bo and David I received a hugh "extended family". Signs hung around the park saying "Bibb Family" because everyone present has become like family to me.
Well last night GOD took me on a journey, it was probably because I had been reflecting on the events of yesterday, probably because I was overtired and probably I don't know what I'm talking about.
We were in a house on a hill with Jill, my friend Cheryl, my mother, David, Ollie and Bo was playing in his room. We were watching TV, football(we watched Razorback game at the picnic yesterday). Mother was talking, Cheryl, Jill and I were on the couch eating and talking. David got upset because he couldn't hear the tv, and left the room, Mother says"he's not doing a very good joy of filtering today." I laughed, Cheryl dropped her food all over the blanket, Jill crawled under the blanket and David was hollering for Ollie to come eat the food. Utter chaois. Then it happened....
A sound I have never heard before, the sky turned darker than night, the air was sucked from the room, Cheryl, Jill and my Mother were wisked from my eyes it was as if they had never been in the scene at all. Then I screamed "David, David" and then "Bo, Bo" I couldn't move...it was the same as the moment they had told us Bo and Lori were killed....I am screaming, screaming, screaming and no one is coming....I am stuck and can't get up...I can't breathe, my heart won't beat, the air is pushing me to the floor, the wind is swirling around in my head and no one is coming...all I hear are the sounds of my own screaming and I am enveloped by the darkness of the night.
The next thing I am walking on the streets among people I don't know holding tight to my glasess but not seeing anything but a bunch of people with animals that are to afraid to walk, it's raining, it's dark. I get to the first overpass and they say "you can't come in", I get to the second overpass and they say "this one is full" it's getting darker and darker the rain is comer faster and faster I can't find David or Bo, the rain washes my tears as fast as they fall....I don't feel wet, I don't feel cold, I don't feel fear...I come to the next overpass there are police cars, motorcycles lined across the intersection and they are separating people. They say "everyone to the right- no more room on the left we're sorry!" and then it happens - this officer with the most beautiful dark brown Jesus eyes looks me full in face, I drop my glasses HE takes my hand and says "Your safe, you will find what you are looking for in here !"
I'M HOME !!!!!
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