You Have to Hurt to Heal - Really ????

Does it really have to hurt so much? Why? Life is hard enough without all this pain, somedays I wear that big smile, I walk in those big girl shoes and I pretend that life is good - so much pretending might make it so...because for the most part life is good. I am loved, protected, cherished and sheltered.

Today I close my eyes and see myself with my beautiful Himalayan basket in my hands, as I walk across a meadow that is covered with the most beautiful wildflowers. GOD's meadow - HIS gift to me is that I am allowed to pick as many as I want to fill my basket to represent all the blessings in my life. Every color is there, so precious, so beautiful, so perfect, just as the blessings in my life are. Yet I stand in HIS meadow with my eyes filled with tears and I look out at this beauty and wonder and for a split second all I see is what I don't have rather than what I do have.

GOD in HIS infinite wisdom is showing me over and over again that sometimes I have to hurt to heal ! Yes, it's true. The things that are present by their absence in my life cause me to see the greatest gifts in my life - my other blessings.

My life my have changed, it may hurt with every breath that I take, I may struggle just to try to understand who HE wants me to be, but not who I am. I am a child of GOD, loved, cherish, sheltered from the storm and blessed by many. As I stand in that field with tears flowing down my cheeks, I am reminded yet again of the beauty of the world I live in, the glorious love of the people that ABBA has sent into my life and my heart starts singing.

The picture changes - now my basket is overflowing with the beauty of these flowers. I am laughing, running, dancing, picking wildflowers as fast as I can. My heart is racing because I can't count my blessings fast enough. I have an abundance of gifts, I close my eyes once more, fall to my knees in GOD's meadow, raise my head to the Heaven's and thank my FATHER for the blessing of you !!!