I Don't Have To Wonder

When someone dies in an accident people often say, "Oh, he never really got to live a full life or what a shame, you really don't know what he would have turned out like if he had lived longer."

Well, I don't have to wonder what kind of a man Bo would have become if he had lived longer, he had already become the man GOD intended him to be. He was funny, quick witted, a great jokester. A man of honor, intergity, a man of great character, but a man with many issues, weaknesses, secrets and failures. He was a man of great faith, a man who loved deeply, who cried often, who suffered deeply great losses and carried hidden pains in the deep recesses of his soul.

He was a man who cherished GOD, family, friends and loyalty above all. He would have given his life in a heartbeat for any of us at any moment. He was a Momms's boy who suffered for it for many years and paid heavily until he met Lori. He loved children of all ages, shapes, sizes and colors but Ian opened his heart to the joy of the true love of a child. He never felt he could measure up to being a Father so he chose to never have children, never realizing what all of us knew, and he couldn't see - he would have been GREAT at it !!!

He suffered from the abandoned child syndrome many children of divorced parents suffer from today, feeling unworthy, unloved, betrayed and unwanted by a biological parent.

Physically, he was tall, handsome and many women and girls found him very attractive. Beautiful eyes, loved to wear ballcaps, kept his hair military cut. I loved his hands and his hugs - no pats, just wrap those arms around you and hug.

He loved to swim with Ian and throw his Momma in the pool. He would rather be in the woods at the cabin or on his motorcycle. He lived well and he died happy.
He loved his sister Jill and his Dad David. He loved Ozzie his Bulldog, hunting, fishing, 4-wheeling, duck hunting, riding motorcycles, reconnecting with old friends like his first love Laura, putting the pieces of the past together.

Bo loved serving his country more than anything he ever did in his life. He was born to be a soldier.

No I don't wonder what Bo would have become. I see him everyday in the friends I have made since he and Lori made their Heaven date 2 years ago. He was and still is remembered with love, happiness, loyalty, hardwork, friendship, laughter, tears, joy and peace. Everyone knows Bo and Lori are in Heaven with Dad rejoicing with Jesus and celebrating the life GOD intended them to have.

I am blessed to have been touched by his life and to continue to his life touch others each and everyday. Thank you Jesus - you gifted me a beautiful son who loved me, knew me and graced me long enough that I don't have to wonder, I know.