Phantom Limb Disorder

Have you ever heard of the Phantom Limb Disorder?  It's when a person loses a limb or has a limb amputated due to accident or injury and they still feel that limb.  Let's just say for the sake of this article you lost your leg in an IUD explosion and they amputated it from the knee down, or it could have been due to diabetes,  but after the surgery you are laying there and you say "my toe itches"  people look at you like your crazy.  But you aren't,  you go to get up forgetting for a second that whoops, my leg is gone because you still feel that it is there.  You feel pain there, you hurt there, you still have the urge to kick a ball, rub you leg, cross you ankles, tie your shoes and oh my gosh who ever heard of buying one shoe at a store.

Well, there are other kinds of Phantom Limb Disorders out there besides physical losses.  I was laying in bed this morning, those early morning hours between awake and asleep, just at the edge of consciousness when I realized this.  I wrapped my arm around D's and snugged into him as usual, I could feel his weight in the bed, I could hear him breathing, I could feel his arms around me and sense his heartbeat before I realized that he was not there.

Then in the crudeness of reality - BAMMMM !!! Like all of those with Phantom Limb Disorders reality hits - there are artificial limbs that can be put in place of a limb, but it never replaces the need for what you once had and lost.

 There are no replacements for D, nothing that can be fitted, molded, shaped or made, purchased at a store and tried on for size.  There was one D, I am soooooo thankful that he was my gift for 30 years, and I cherish those phantom moments.  I love those quiet moments between sleep and waking - they are rare - but for a moment - I am back in the arms of my loved one - loved, cherished and comforted - Ohhhhh I am so BLESSED !!!!  Thank you Jesus for your gifts of abundance !!! You amaze me with your teachings.