Stress - Really D !!!!

One thing D always told me was I was so fortunate because I never worried about things.  He was right.  There was a time in my life when it was easy to give things to GOD and let HIM handle everything for me - now it's not so easy.  I am beginning to think that D is channeling himself in me now that he is in HEAVEN.  This is one trait that he could have taken to the grave.

Major stress running two businesses, irate customer, etc.,, two shop vehicles with multiple repair issues, it's like a money pit around here.   Then home, a swimming pool that just won't clear up, general maintenance issues, etc.   Then I hear those words "you just don't know how hard it is to hold all this together and help you take care of things around the house."  D would be exhausted.  I GET IT !!! I wasn't much help around here I must admit, but I was his helper at home.  Thank goodness or I will really feel guilty now. 

But you know what I am thankful for the businesses, our home, the pool, the things that exhaust me.  I am not thankful for the stress.  I have to relearn what I used to preach to D, I have to work at giving it back to GOD. Trying to get by on 2 hours sleep, showing up at the shop at 5 a.m. and pacing the floors at home is not good for Ollie or me.  He is confused and tired now. (me too)

I sit back today and laugh at myself because no amount stress, lack of sleep or playing over and over what could or should happen will make the situation change.  GOD will take care of it as HE deems necessary and work it out or you as HE desires the situation to work best for HIM.  You have to let HIM.

Searching the BIBLE for wisdom at 2 a.m. this morning GOD showed me these words :

Whoever loves instruction loves knowledge, but he who hates correction is stupid.  Proverbs 12:1  (I believe GOD was speaking loud and clear - time to quick sitting on my hands and being passive - get up and act like a boss !!! Give instruction and direction where it is needed, take charge and trust in GOD to provide the things I need to fill in the blanks !!!  Time for me to quit being STUPID !!

Wow !!! I hear him loud and clear - gave those instructions, loud, clear, to the point - this girl is getting off the sidelines and into the game and GOD sent me one of those things HE told me HE would...Beginning to feel less stress already - in fact I see a nap real soon in my future.