Happy Anniversary !

October 18th, 1986 - a perfect fall day in the Ozarks - 26 years I would be married today.  When D and I stood up in front of our friends and family joining our two families into one we said "till death due us part"  Even in death we are not separated.  We joined our families into one - we became one, joined in love, friendship and bond stronger than death itself.

Our family is intact, Jill is still my child, death didn't separate that, Bo is still his child, they are bonded even stronger now in the arms of Jesus.  No, death doesn't stop a relationship in some cases, for some it just intensifies the bonds of family love.

I see pictures of people I know that have moved on into new relationships quickly after their spouses have died.  Happiness radiates from their faces, GOD has blessed them with a new life in someone else's arms.  For me I am not there yet, for me D is still the man I dream about, D is still the man I am married to, D is still the man I am in love with.  Is it crazy?  I don't think so, he was far from perfect, but he completed me and filled my world.

There will be no celebration this year,  no flowers, no dinner or dancing, no making love and being held close.  There will be nothing but the memories of the years we had together so blessed to be one. Today is not a day of regrets, today is a day of praising of GOD for gifting me such an amazing man who raised the bar so high, a man who showed me how a woman should be loved, passionately and tenderly.  A man that enjoyed being spoiled and spoiling.  A man who could hold his own with me and loved our children to distraction.

This is GOD"s day ! A day of thanksgiving, praise, singing and dancing - a day that I will shout to the mountaintops HOW WONDERFUL MY FATHER IN HEAVEN IS !!! for giving me such and amazing gift in David Bibb.